Happy Birthday Danny!!

Happy birthday to my great husband Dan, who turns the big 30 today! Here's a sweet picture of him spending time with Finn. I hope you have a wonderful b-day. I love you!

my sweet boy finn.......

Beautiful day!

It's gorgeous here today. It's pretty cold, the high is only 50 and for us that's quite chilly here. When I looked out the front door this morning, this is what I saw...

Isn't it pretty? I couldn't resist taking a picture of it.

So, me and Finn went for a short walk today. I made sure and bundled him up good since it's cold and breezy. He was probably like, "What the heck are you doing to me?" He really is a good baby and only fusses when the bottles not in his mouth fast enough and when he get's a diaper change. I don't blame him, I wouldn't like that either. We're just enjoying being home and relaxing. I nap when he naps, which is the advice everyone gave me.

I hope everyone's enjoying the holiday season and remember to slow down and remember the reason for the season. Having a baby this time of year is a good reminder of the baby Jesus being born. Don't get caught up in everything commercial, this has been a good reminder for myself being home and not out and about. Merry Christmas!

I'm in love with.......

my baby boy's feet! They are the cutest things I've ever seen and I just love to hold him and rub them. Isn't baby soft skin the greatest? I wish our skin stayed that way. Lucky for us, it's very warm down here in FL and I've been able to sit out back on the patio and feed him and rock him in the glider. Weather wise it's been a perfect 1st week to be home. We went for a walk on Wed and he slept through the whole thing, so that was good. Besides him wanting to eat EVERY hour last night things are going well. A friend just told me that she thought they cluster fed around the age of 10 days or so, so if that's true then that makes since. So, I'm going on maybe 2 hrs of sleep today. I've never known sleep deprivation until now. Dan's going to help me tonight though since it's the weekend. YAY! I might get a few more hours tonight.

Here's the little guy getting ready for his 1st walk! He's just too cute, I could eat him up... :)

Finn is here!

Hey everyone! I'm just now getting around to posting this and I still don't even feel like doing it now. Too sleepy.......But, since I'm just sitting here pumping my breasts, I've got time to kill. :) First things 1st, Finn arrived on Dec. 8 at 5:28 pm weighing in at 7 lbs even. He's a small little guy. I was expecting this huge baby to come out guess. The delivery was ok, I was actually fully dilated and pushing when his heart rate kept dropping and he decided to turn sideways and they had to do an emergency c-section. That sucked! All that waiting and then to have to have a c-section, and I was dilated and ready to deliver. I guess the baby had other plans. The good news is that everything turned out alright and he arrived safe and sound. I was supposed to come home on Thur but my blood pressure was acting up and they wanted to keep me another night. While we were in the hospital also, Finn kept losing weight. I'm trying to breast feed and I guess he wasn't getting enough, he dropped down to 6 lb 4 oz and he stopped latching on. We ended up having to supplement formula so he wouldn't lose any more weight. Since then, he won't latch on. He knows what to do and will suck a few times and then he screams holy murder. This is very stressful and going on the 5th day now. So, I'm pumping and we're giving him a combination of breast milk and formula. I really wanted to breast feed, but now....I'm not so sure. I was hoping to nap when he napped and this isn't working out with having to feel him and then go pump everytime. Dan doesn't get anytime of from his job since he's on probation and it's just really tiring and hard. I also am on a ton of medicine for my high blood pressure and I don't like the way it makes me feel. It doesn't work very well and my pressure goes up and down. It would be nice to get back on a single dose of med again and get it under control. I can't do that if I'm breast feeding. Anyways, I have a lot to think about and consider. I don't want to give up and I hate that I feel like I am giving up. I know formula is fine for the baby, it's just hard to admit that maybe my body can't do something for the little one.
Here's a few pics of the baby. I'll be sure to post more pics and write more soon. I know everyone knows how I feel about being just a tad overwhelmed. :) But, it's totally worth every bit of it, isn't it?

bed rest.......

Ok, so here's the excitement that's been going on here. Sunday all day I could tell my blood pressure was up. I was cranky and my fingers were swollen and I've had HBP for long enough now to know when it's up so I checked it. IT was up. I took my medicine. I checked it 2 hrs later, it was still up so I called the Dr's office. I talked to the nurse who then called the dr on call and then called back to tell us to come on into the hospital. We got there around 9 sunday night and i ended up staying till this morning. My pressure still wouldn't go down Sun so that's why they decided to keep me overnight and do BP checks and a 24 hr urine collection to check for protein. So, needless to say, everything came back good. My BP is still going up a little but for the most part is good. I'm on bedrest until Monday morning when we'll go in and I will get induced. The dr also checked me this morning and I am dilated 1 1/2 cm so far so that's encouraging too. Maybe he won't wait on the induction and decide he wants to come before that. I guess we will just wait around and see. I'm glad to be home but it will be very hard for me to do this whole bed rest thing. My parents are going to come on down either Thursday or Fri and stay till next Fri so that will be a big help.

Just wanted to let everyone know what is happening here. They'll be a baby here before we know it! It still hasn't hit me yet, even while I just spent 2 nights in the hospital. As soon as those labor pains hit though I'm sure I'll realize that this is all very real. I am excited, just hasn't felt real to me yet. Is this wierd?