Finn's birthday

so since i've been absolutely terrible at blogging, i missed putting pics up of finn's 3rd bday. i can't believe he's 3 already, crazy.....

we had the best bday party ever here at the house. i've decided to do a big party for him every other year as he grows up. i don't think its necessary to do something big every year.

this year we got a bounce house delivered to the house for all the kids. it's funny b/c it originally was supposed to be a monster truck, then he called & said it had ripped the week of the party. oops! then we decided on a big bday cake one. well, the day of the party he shows up & apparently he had set that one up at the house before ours by accident. needless to say, we ended up with sponge bob bounce house. it honestly didn't matter what it was b/c finn is just all about jumping. :) he also gave us off a little on the price b/c of the mishap.

there were 12 kids. everyone of them was so well behaved, they had a blast. and the house was in our yard all day so we jumped ALL day. i mean ALL day. i thought i was going to be so sore the next day, but i wasn't.

here is finn having fun with one of the neighbor kids..

party time!

before the chaos..

i also went to finn's class the day before his bday to take cupcakes. the kids loved it & finn loved the extra attention of course..

he already had his crown on when i got there.

i'm not sure what our future holds as for having more children, but i thank god for the one i do have. i feel so honored to have been given him & i pray that i can be the best mother to him.

this past year...

i have...

met many new friends. good friends. :)

started a new job that i love.

quit a job that i did not love.

not gone on vacation.

had a miscarriage.

started a bible study.

and not all in that order...

it's been a tough close-out to this year, but i'm thinking it can only get better. i have a wonderful family & great friends. a loving husband(whose bday is today!) and a quirky little 3 yr old.

God is good!

here's a few pics from our photo session in nov. we have never had our pictures taken professionally so this was a treat! they turned out nice & i can't wait to order some.

they did not come in time for christmas cards, which is why y'all didn't receive one from me. sorry!! i was hoping..

this one below is my favorite. we don't have a large family on my husband's side but we are all very close. i love how this one turned out.

my sis in law calls this my "next top model shot"! hahaha

just the two of us...

my little family, love them. :)

i pray everyone has a safe & healthy new year's!

my little dude...

this is a grainy picture, but i love it.

this was one of the days where he was just attached to my hip. didn't want to leave my side. i loved it. and he was actually sitting still. :)

doing better

i'm finally feeling back to my old self again. the sadness still comes and goes and i know it will be like that for awhile. i had blood work done yesterday & my levels are still not all the way down. i have to go back every week until they are zero. hopefully that will be next week. i just want to put this all behind me. the physical stuff that is.

i want to start blogging more again. hopefully i can make the time for it. i also want to do better at couponing. i bought a 3 ring binder the other day, and baseball card organizers to organize them better. i'm not working tomorrow so that is going to be my project. i just try to save where i can.

anyways, that was very random.. have a good night!

how things are....

but first 2 pictures of my finny...

b/c he's so cute. :)

oh how i love this kid!!

this has been a tough few days to say the least. i wish no woman ever had to go through this, and yet it happens all the time & is so common. miscarriage. now i feel like i'm "one of those women" . not that it's a bad thing, but i feel differently now. if you've gone through it then you understand.

i'm hoping the worst is over. i'll spare you the gritty details but let me just say that for 3 hours last night i was very intimate with my bathroom. i had no idea what to expect & what i went through i wish no one had to. it was painful, it was emotional, it was horrible. i'm not exaggerating.... it was like contractions, the cramps that is. i won't say anything else about it. i am still having heavy bleeding but am hoping that will ease up in the next few days. i did go back to work today, wish i hadn't, but i did.

i was so grateful dan took the day off yesterday to be with me. i needed him, especially last night. i don't know what i would have done without him, theres no way i could have taken care of finn by myself.

this is a depressing post. sorry. but it helps to write it out.

i'm not going to discuss this on facebook, its inappropriate. people will just have to figure out on their own what happened, i'm not going to talk about it on there. i wish i would have never announced the pregnancy. now i know better.

baby conner

i'm sad to say that i've lost this precious baby that i've been carrying. i had an idea b/c i've been bleeding since friday morning. i did go to the dr friday & we saw a heartbeat. but i kept bleeding over the weekend & just didn't have a good feeling. it was confirmed today, 1st at the dr's office, than at the hospital where i had to get another ultrasound done, that there was no heartbeat.

i'm very sad. i'm just so tired and feel very weapy. i'm sad that there won't be a baby here next summer. this had come as a total surprise, but as a mom you become very attached very quickly. which i have done.

please pray for me. i should be able to pass the baby naturally. i'm staying home from work tomorrow but will be back on wed. just pray. thanks.

getting caught up!

i have been really bad about uploading pictures lately. it seems that more times than not i'm online using my iphone, and its not that user friendly uploading pics & such.

sometime time just flies by & it seems like it's already getting to be that busy time of the year.

this morning dan & i went kayaking in st marys, ga. we've been one other time & loved it. this time it was a 6 mile loop around an island, all in the marsh though. it was wonderful. i absolutely LOVE the marsh & love coastal ga. if i could move there right now i would. it was a guided trip through crooked river state park. we'll def be doing more there, we love it that much. i'm trying to talk dan into getting a kayak or canoe instead of a new gun. men & their toys! :)

here are a few pics..

i think the pic below is absolutely beautiful! i loved seeing the reflections from the sky in the water. it truly is beautiful...

here we are on grover island. this was our one stop on the trip so we could get out & stretch out legs.

grover island

the husband :)

and a few pics of my boy :)

every sunday, finn & i drink coffee & read the paper.

he likes to look at the target ad & the toys r us ad.

i think these next pics uploaded backwards. oops!

a few weekends ago the 3 of us traveled up to darien,ga to stay at a b& b. dan & i have stayed there before & absolutely loved it & couldn't wait to get back. i told you i love coastal ga. :) anyways, we took finn this time. they have a seperate room there above their carriage house. its connected to the house but seperate too. perfect for us, with finn. he did really well while we were there. they have a nice salt water pool that we enjoyed & he actually slept well that night. we just stayed one night. breakfast was another story, but luckily we were the only ones eating at that time so it wasn't a big deal.

this was on the way home

this was our room above the carriage house.

the front of the b & b

and these are a few random pics of finn with bugs. the child loves anything that crawls, no fear there.

ok, i'm caught up. yay me!

for now at least....

can you tell?

where finn's favorite seat in the house is???

this was brownie mix from today..

i think it's safe to say he thought it was yummy.

and this was his 1st taste of nutella, yum!!

he's like his mommy & daddy & loves this stuff. :)

but he put it on something i never thought to before, strawberries!!!

too bad strawberries are going out of season here.

i'm not to good at keeping up anymore. just always doing something else. :)

finn's back at preschool. he's doing great, he loves school & does real well with a schedule. as do dan & i. it's nice to back in a routine again.

there's a hurricane coming. it's supposed to hit here by fri. i'm not too worried yet, for some reason jacksonville always get's skirted by with the storms. i will stock up this week though on batteries & make sure to get some cash out.

that's about all that's going on here. nothing exciting.

hope you enjoyed the pics!

oh my goodness...

finn was BEYOND hyper today. i have never seen him like this, ever! he had too many sugary drinks at lunch time, even though they were watered down with water, it still didn't seem to matter. he never napped, and he drove us nuts all afternoon. :) we eventually went over to my MIL's house just to get out for a little while. so, at 7:25 this evening he was out. i put him to bed, rubbed his head & sang to him. it took maybe 5 minutes for him to fall asleep. i don't know why, but when i go to sing kid song or lullabies to him, i draw a blank. i seem to sing the same ones over & over. can anyone help me out here with a list to go off of?? :) i love it when i get to watch him drift off though. nothing is sweeter than a child sleeping. i took the time tonight to pray over him & thank Jesus for this precious child i get to raise here on this earth.. it's amazing, isn't it?

good night all...