Sunday, December 14, 2008

Finn is here!

Hey everyone! I'm just now getting around to posting this and I still don't even feel like doing it now. Too sleepy.......But, since I'm just sitting here pumping my breasts, I've got time to kill. :) First things 1st, Finn arrived on Dec. 8 at 5:28 pm weighing in at 7 lbs even. He's a small little guy. I was expecting this huge baby to come out guess. The delivery was ok, I was actually fully dilated and pushing when his heart rate kept dropping and he decided to turn sideways and they had to do an emergency c-section. That sucked! All that waiting and then to have to have a c-section, and I was dilated and ready to deliver. I guess the baby had other plans. The good news is that everything turned out alright and he arrived safe and sound. I was supposed to come home on Thur but my blood pressure was acting up and they wanted to keep me another night. While we were in the hospital also, Finn kept losing weight. I'm trying to breast feed and I guess he wasn't getting enough, he dropped down to 6 lb 4 oz and he stopped latching on. We ended up having to supplement formula so he wouldn't lose any more weight. Since then, he won't latch on. He knows what to do and will suck a few times and then he screams holy murder. This is very stressful and going on the 5th day now. So, I'm pumping and we're giving him a combination of breast milk and formula. I really wanted to breast feed, but now....I'm not so sure. I was hoping to nap when he napped and this isn't working out with having to feel him and then go pump everytime. Dan doesn't get anytime of from his job since he's on probation and it's just really tiring and hard. I also am on a ton of medicine for my high blood pressure and I don't like the way it makes me feel. It doesn't work very well and my pressure goes up and down. It would be nice to get back on a single dose of med again and get it under control. I can't do that if I'm breast feeding. Anyways, I have a lot to think about and consider. I don't want to give up and I hate that I feel like I am giving up. I know formula is fine for the baby, it's just hard to admit that maybe my body can't do something for the little one.
Here's a few pics of the baby. I'll be sure to post more pics and write more soon. I know everyone knows how I feel about being just a tad overwhelmed. :) But, it's totally worth every bit of it, isn't it?


Tammy said...

Holly Beth,
You're doing just fine as a new mother! I know you wanted to breast feed Finn but either way he'll be fine. Don't feel like a failure if you can't. I know even though I never planned to breat feed Miriam, I felt a little sad knowing I couldn't provide for her if I needed or chose to. I love the picture of you and him together. He's just the cutest little thing! And I think I see some Dan in him. Do you think he looks more like you or Dan?

Sally said...

He's adorable! I'm so glad he's here safe and sound. I hope you're healing well from the c-section. Don't overdo it, but keep moving. Short walks when you can - that's what helped me.

I had to stay on BP meds for 8 weeks after Lil Major was born. I think it was a pretty low dose, b/c I don't remember feeling any different on it.

I had a TERRIBLE time trying to get my boy to nurse. I spent a lot of time w/ the lactation consultant, and she ended up giving me a nipple shield (Lil Major wouldn't stay latched on either, and then he'd pull off and scream b/c he was starving). It took a couple tries even w/ the shield and then we were good. And I had to use it til he was 7 months old! It was inconvenient, but I didn't mind since it meant I could keep nursing. Also, when he was about 5 weeks old we found out that he had acid reflux (another reason for pulling off and screaming). He went on meds for that, and the screaming stopped. Just some ideas for you. Hang in there!

That totally sucks that Dan has no time off. Are you parents still there? Is anyone helping you? Maybe someone from church? Use your blog and FB to vent all you want. We'll listen and pray and offer encouragement!

Welcome home, Finn!

Anonymous said...


He is just beautiful.....I can't wait to come see him...his litte feet, his little nose, the sweet baby smell....I love everything about makes me think about how fast my boys have grown...I am so happy for you and Dan. Finn will change your life forever.....and all for the best...enjoy everything about him....See you soon....Carla